Well, this was a tad predictable, wasn’t it? Sergio was right in the end, and I knew it was going to be hard – too hard in the end. Maybe I’ll try this again when I have built up my willpower, for now it really wasn’t working. Week three was better than first two weeks in some regards, but in terms of actually following the schedule… none of it was happening. Sure I had patches of productivity but none of it was along my schedule. So it is pretty worthless to have one if you’re not going along it.
In the end all of the posts, writing and thinking relating to it was a bit of a waste. But nothing really is ultimately a complete was, even failures are lessons. For me the lesson is that my life is in too much of a flow at the moment for me to try to adhere to anything rigid.
But I can’t just be completely undisciplined either. What I will focus on from now on is just fighting those small battles with my willpower to get work done daily, to get my fitness back in order. I should be at the peak shape of my life, and I probably can hit the peak shape of my life this year, but I need to start working out to do that. Work and work out, that should be my mantra from now on. Doesn’t matter what time is it, as long as I keep doing it.
I’m intending to start posting much more frequently here as well, but that’s something I’m always intending, isn’t it? We will see what happens. Ultimately I thank you if you’ve followed along me on this ultimately fruitless journey, lets hope to something better in the future.